ROAR!!!!

Project.
Project.
Research.
Project.
Just need to pull through another and then I will sing,
"I AM FREE TO RUN. I AM FREE TO DANCE. I AM FREE TO LIVE FOR YOU. YES, I AM FREE!"
According to that they song, it really means that we are set free from our sins because of the blood of Christ.
For the past week, I have been staying at SFU Surrey until 9pm or after.
It was quite hard to get things done, but I am already making progress.
Therefore, three projects and one paper...ROAR!!!!
HANG IN THERE, TIMMY!

When I am tired, I began to zone out a lot.
As I was walking home today from school...yes, school is still open on Saturday, I felt like fainting due to exhaustion.
Gladly, God continues to sustain me and helping me through.
I began to ponder...and quite a lot of things went through my mind.
However, one thing in my mind that I kept focus was her.
I confess, I do miss her.
Being unable to see her or talk to her on the phone for almost two weeks gives me this chilliness.
I don't know how to explain though.
All I can say is that I do miss her quite a lot.
As I talked about my feelings about her in my last blogs, sometimes I do want to cry, but not a glimpse of drip in eyes would fall out.
As I continue to long to see her, I hunger God so much.
Every night, I stand before Him, with all these petitions and requests in front of Him.
Understand and knowing Him as a being, through the scriptures, enlightens my thought.
Jesus is my only hope to the Father.
No one comes to the Father but through Jesus.
I wonder, if people who prays to God without having a personal relationship with Jesus, then I wonder if their prayers would be answered.
Or maybe in terms of reaching to heaven, our Salvation that comes from Him, then Jesus is our only hope for our Salvation.
I continually ask God for answers.
I fear the results the most, but I believe that God's result are for the goods.
Some people asked me, "What if she doesn't like you?"
If she doesn't like me, then that is probably God's answer and His will for her and for me.
Being humble about it is very important too.
As I continue in this journey, I also want to be reminded by Romans 8:25-27.
"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the
Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray
for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words
cannot express. And he
who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the
Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will."
My hope is not about me wanting to spend the rest of my life on earth with her, but my hope is for my prayer to be answered.
I will continue to pray and wait for the Lord.

Come to me (Isaiah 55)

For those who walked away from God.
For those who are still searching for the Truth.
For those who desires to seek answer.
For those who want to be satisfied.
For those who want to be loved.
For those who disbelieve.
Why not give God a chance?
Sincerely open up yourself FULLY to Him, and He will reveal himself to you.
What did Jesus ever do to you that made you disbelieve?

 ¹ "Come, all you who are thirsty,
       come to the waters;
       and you who have no money,
       come, buy and eat!
       Come, buy wine and milk
       without money and without cost.

 ² Why spend money on what is not bread,
       and your labor on what does not satisfy?
       Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
       and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.

 ³ Give ear and come to me;
       hear me, that your soul may live.
       I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
       my faithful love promised to David.

 ⁴ See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
       a leader and commander of the peoples.

 ⁵ Surely you will summon nations you know not,
       and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
       because of the LORD your God,
       the Holy One of Israel,
       for he has endowed you with splendor."

 ⁶ Seek the LORD while he may be found;
       call on him while he is near.

 ⁷ Let the wicked forsake his way
       and the evil man his thoughts.
       Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
       and to our God, for he will freely pardon.

 ⁸ "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
       neither are your ways my ways,"
       declares the LORD.

 ⁹ "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
       so are my ways higher than your ways
       and my thoughts than your thoughts.

 ¹⁰ As the rain and the snow
       come down from heaven,
       and do not return to it
       without watering the earth
       and making it bud and flourish,
       so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

 ¹¹ so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
       It will not return to me empty,
       but will accomplish what I desire
       and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

 ¹² You will go out in joy
       and be led forth in peace;
       the mountains and hills
       will burst into song before you,
       and all the trees of the field
       will clap their hands.

 ¹³ Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
       and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
       This will be for the LORD's renown,
       for an everlasting sign,
       which will not be destroyed."

Give Him a chance.

Must CUT it off (Matthew 18:8)

List of things I must stop or else I would go insane with stress.
- Cut off Warcraft.
- Cut off arcade.
- Cut off wasting time.
I would finish so much work if I just cut them right off.
Okay, I am feeling quite anxious and stress for this week.
Quite a lot of things to finish.
Please pray for me.

It's coming back

As I am looking forward to the end of the semester, I am also looking forward to all the piles of work that will fall on me.
It is almost the end of the month, again.
Majority of my subjects are alright.
I am kind of struggling with this writing course: Tech 101W.
Honestly, I really hate writing, and I will be doing an upper level writing in the future.
I got back my research paper, and boom!
I didn't fail, but I didn't expect to get that mark.
I seriously need to redeem my marks through my next paper.
IAT 102 is average for me.
I can't say I am not doing so well, but I also can't say I am doing well.
I am just between the marks, and hoping to accomplish better for my final project.
IAT 100 is alright now.
Josh and I will be working together on FLASH Animation.
Perhaps we could show some of our works to C4Cers.
Must do really well for the Final Project.
Note to self: MUST DO REALLY WELL ON THE WRITE-UP.
Not saying that I screwed up on my last two projects 'cause I got A's on both my projects, BUT the write-up is the only thing that pulled my marks down.
Therefore, Josh and I will be starting on it this week.
CMPT 120 has another project assigned.
I will be creating a game called Reversi!
Search it up on google and have fun with it.
Anyhow, the good thing about it is that I get to work with a partner!
I never thought that someone would want to work with me because it is an option if we want to work with someone.
Anyhow, must get perfect on the project 'cause I almost did for the last project.
Oh boy, this sounds fun alright???
Three MAJOR FINAL PROJECTS, and ONE RESEARCH PAPER are due on the LAST WEEK.
So I have two more weeks to finish it...make it one and half weeks left.
Like what Chinese people would say, "ADD OIL or +++++++OIL."
Must pull this through.
God is the only source of energy, and Jesus is the one that transfers that energy to us.
I used that analogy from Parable of the vine and the branches.
Seriously, if we don't abide in Christ, then how will be bear much fruit?
"I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." ~ Philippians 4:13

Sincerity (Various of verses)

As I am approaching the future by seconds, I learned something new.
Sincerity is not a word that I use everyday.
Based on what it means, there are some words that can define it.
To shorten into an adjective, the word will be sincere.
Let's collect few words to match what it means.
Purity.
Honesty.
Wholehearted.
That's what I understand of what sincerity means.
So we know what it means, now let's go deeper.
Here's a question for all of us:
How does it apply to us?
Are we hypocrites?
Deep down inside, are we really being sincere before God and our neighbors?
Yesterday, I was talking to my friend.
Sincere was brought up in the conversation.
hmm...I am sincere?
Wow, I never thought someone would think of me or see me as a sincere person.
However, I do struggle with being sincere,
Here's the challenge, God is testing our hearts to see if we are sincere before Him.
Believe or not, this is the truth, God knows our hearts.
Isaiah 29:13 "The Lord says, 'These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men.' "
Sincerity is only mentioned in the New Testament.
Why though?
Because people are recognizing who God is through the power of the Holy Spirit.
Acts 2:46 "Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and SINCERE hearts..."
First, we see that believers are gathering in small homes to fellowship.
Paul reminds us about having a sincere heart, faith, and love.
You can take a lot of verses in the New Testament about being sincere.
One of the good reminders from Paul is 1 Timothy 1:5
"The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith."
May we reminded to have this attitude of sincerity before our Heavenly Father.
From now on, I desire to be sincere before God in everything that I do.

His work (Romans 8:26-28)

Do you ever wonder why people are absent in many certain events that you are in?
For example, God has been working in me in this event, and I wish that he/she would be here to also be filled with His presence.
Sometimes we have this thought that God is already working in us rather than other people who doesn't attend small group, Bible Study, Summit, or Winter Conference.
However, should we really think like that?
Do we have the rights to judge others spirituality?
If we are like that, then we do sound like a self-righteous person.
Really, we are no better than anybody.
Paul says that he is the worst of sinners.
Paul demonstrated an example of humility.
Jesus also demonstrated humility in front of the crowds when he was crucified because it was all for the glory of God.
Romans 12:3 "For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you."
"People want to
find some place that they feel like they can connect and have a sense
of belonging.
The challenge is there is no place for everyone since
everyone has different needs.
It happens at small churches and it
happens at big churches.
The key is focus on doing what the Lord calls
you to do - with excellence and faithfully.
And enjoy it with Him.
If
you see anything that you can change or make it better, ask the Lord
for understanding and ways to improve.
For things that you cannot
change, ask the Lord to give you understanding and peace to accept and
trust them to Him in prayers."My mentor (She is like a mother to me) gave me some encouragement and I agree that I should enjoy God even though the numbers of people in small group is fewer than usual.
I should enjoy God even though there are things that I cannot do but to pray.
Reminds me of few verses in Romans
"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

I may not be able to see what is happening in other people's spiritual lives, but I believe through prayer that God will continue to work in them.
Final verse I want to share
Philippians 1:6 "being confident of this, that HE WHO BEGAN A GOOD WORK IN YOU will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

Servant, Apostle, and Prisoner of Christ

Allen Chao sent me a interesting note talking about the title.
It might not be surprising to us that the writers talk about it because they ARE who they say they are.
Reading throughout the New Testament, I came upon realizing about my position.
Of course, we are God's children.
Sometimes, we can be simple-minded and get caught by Biblical World View.
Even some of us can make mistake of our own position.
I acknowledge the Allen did and continues to observe God's words.
This is how Allen concluded
"How about you? What is your
identity for God? Many times people ask me why I study? I say for the
glory of God. But really? Deep down, is my purpose of studying for the
glory of God? What am I studying for? To gain knowledge and get a good
job and live a comfortable life? Is it Allen, a student for Christ
Jesus? A CEO for Christ Jesus? Never.

I believe we need to know
how we are giving glory to God, back up the talk. In Christ we are all
servants, apostles, prisoners for the sake of the Gospel, there are no
more earthly titles. Until then, we will not have unity in Christ."
Let us continue to be Servant, Apostle, and Prisoner of Christ.

Mrs.Blake (1 Thessalonions 5:1-2)

It was such a big shock for me when I heard that my P.E teacher, when I was in grade 11, passed away yesterday.
Fighting cancer is such a difficult thing.
It was actually a big surprise to hear someone I knew from high school passed away.
Not only that, when I went back to my high school website, another staff from SWC died on my birthday due to breast cancer.
When I heard about it, I immediately looked back to the passage in Thessalonians.
The day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night.
Destruction will come SUDDENLY.
I wonder if they looked forward to that.
Just recently...or maybe a year ago, there was an accident at a sushi bar where the truck ran into the store...killing two women.
One of them was 19 and the other one was a waitress.
The mother of the teenager said something like this, "In my life, I never thought that my daughter suddenly pass away."
It is a sudden shock.
It just hit my heart when I heard someone died.
Imagine that someone close to us died all of the sudden.
I know someone who had that kind of shock and sadness that they experienced.
It is not very easy to accept that.
Instead of thinking about others death, how about you?
When you walk out the door of your house, do you look forward to death?
I am sure this is a rhetorical question that cannot be answered.
However, it is possible.
Even when you're at home, do you look forward to death?
I'll throw in another scary thought, do you think you will still be alive the next morning?
God will call you home at any moment.
For me, I must be ready for it and stand firm to it.
 Maybe you might think that God is cruel to allow that to happen.
Well, who are we to judge God?
Why does science allow us to die?
Of course, science has already proven that we are going to turn to dust.
One of the pastor said this, "I have a good news and bad news."
"Good news is that God is here"
"Bad news is that God is here"
"It all depends on where you are standing."
Indeed, we WILL die. The end. Period.
So where will you go after you die?
Don't be simple-minded.
Give yourself a deeper thought.

Quality Friendship (2 Corinthians 6)

When I was in studying at Burnaby Campus, I didn't made much non-Christian friends.
There were probably very few whom I know that are unbelievers.
When I came to Surrey Campus to study, I discover that I made friends a lot easier.
Mainly is because I stayed in the games room hanging out with new non-Christian friends and getting to know who they are.
Playing video games with them is not necessarily a sin, but it depends on your own circumstance.
Are you obsess with games? Does it cause you to get addicted to it?
I did got kind of into the games in it and wanted to play with them whenever I had the time.
Spending time with them gave me a newer view of the world.
Bad language, rude and impolite comments, hazing others, and many more.
Today, I had the chance to understand them more.
Went to the pub to eat chicken wings and drinking beer.
Don't worry, I only took a sip and that was all.
For your information, I always thought drinking was a sin, but reading through the Bible made me understand more of what is sin and what is not sin.
First of all, Jesus drank wine at the wedding banquet in the beginning of Luke, so I believe it is alright for me to drink wine.
Paul warned us not to be drunk on wine, but be filled with the Spirit.
Paul also told Timothy to drink a little wine to sooth his stomach and illnesses because I think the water were contaminated?? Need to look up on that.
Anyhow, I kind of understand their personality and how they are living their lives.
One thing that kind gets me intimated is when one of them asked me to go clubbing on Wednesday.
One of them also asked me to smoke pot when him on Friday.
Of course, I know what to say when it comes to being tempted to sin: NO!
As representing as God's children, I will not be yoked together with unbelievers.
Some people might think that this verse talks about marriage, but it is in-depth.
First of all, it is the communion that we have.
I like what one of the commentary said:
 "In stated relations. It is wrong for good people to join in affinity with the wicked and profane; these will draw different ways, and that will be galling and grievous. Those relations that are our choice must be chosen by rule; and it is good for those who are themselves the children of God to join with those who are so likewise; for there is more danger that the bad will damage the good than hope that the good will benefit the bad."
THEREFORE, "since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God." 2 Corinthians 7:1

Psalm 78

The Holy Spirit spoke to me when I read that passage.
It talked quite a lot about the grace, mercy, and wrath that God has to the Israelite.
The Israelite were rebellious against God in the Old Testament.
When you read Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy, you'll discover so much about who God is.
Also, the things that are happening in those passages reflects to the modern day.
It has quite a lot of application in it.
Just think about it for a moment.
They didn't have Jesus back then.
Generation after generation, Israel, the chosen nation, keeps rebelling.
"LIKE their fathers they were disloyal and faithless, as unreliable as a faulty bow."
Not only it talked about God's grace, mercy, and wrath, but in the beginning of the passage, it is also instructing us something.
"what we have heard and known, what our fathers have told us. We will NOT hide them from their children; we will tell the next generation the praiseworthy deeds of the Lord, his power, and the wonders has done."
Following that, it says, "so the next generation would know them, even the children yet to be born, and they in turn would tell their children."
Lets pray for ourselves that we won't rebel against God or turn away from Him, and that our next generation won't rebel against Him, but continue to live faithfully for His purpose.

An interesting question has been raised to me just a moment ago.
"When are you going to ask her out?"
I'm sure most of you readers are already wondering what is going on these days.
But if you go back to August archive, and I think it is in the beginning of the month, I blogged about the covenant I made with her.
 I won't be asking her out anytime soon.
I want to continue to earnestly pray about it for another 9 months.
If it is by God's will, then I will ask her.
For now, I want to pray.
If you marry the wrong person, then things will go way WRONG.
Thank you, hopefully, to all of you who have been praying for me.
I had an interesting thought about success.
Good result doesn't mean you are successful =)
Comment on it if you highly disagree.

When can I say it?

I am so glad that this week has ended.
Projects 2 are done!
Therefore, I have some time to rest from all the late night sleep I had.
What can I say?
Next Wednesday is Remembrance Day, which I don't have school, and I don't have school on Thursday 'cause I don't have class.
Another bonus is that I don't have a lab on Friday morning!!!!
Wow, I am blessed that God has given me these days and times to rest, and also to start on projects instead of cramming them.
Hopefully I won't be slacking off before November ends.
Trust me, when you step into University, one semester can just fly by just an instant.
I am thoroughly enjoying what I am doing right now.
Except I need to have think of more creative way to design my poster for IAT 102.
I need to brainstorm some ideas on what to do for my Interactive Motion Design for IAT 100.
I need to finish my persuasive paper for Tech 101W, and I forgot to pick up my informative research paper.
I have some things to do for CMPT 120...nothing much going on except for the scary 45% Final that I need to study for, and also Project 2.
Anyhow, that is how November will look like.
Enough of school stuff.
Time to reflect.
When I saw her today, she looks more gorgeous and appealing to my eyes.
I love to acknowledge the beauty that she is whenever I see her.
However, there is an obstacle.
Perhaps it is just my curiosity, or my consideration for her.
I would love to wait patiently for her, and I will gladly do it.
Except I don't know...I just don't know what is in her thought...
I'm terrify to ask her, but I do want to know the answer...but still gladly wait for it.
Anyhow, I'll live according to His will, not mine.
I will stop being so strategic and trust that God has everything under control.
I desire passion and intimacy with You, Oh Lord.
May I come close to You so that I may find that person who is also coming close to You.

YES, I AM FREE! I AM FREE

I AM FREE TO RUN!
I AM FREE TO DANCE!
I AM FREE TO LIVE FOR YOU!
YES, I AM FREE!
Spiritually speaking, I am free!
However, I am free for now...until project, assignment, and paper hits me again at the end of the month.
I feel alright now that some of my stuff are done.
One project and presentation to finish on Friday!

Stressful updates

Okay viewers!
I am still not dead yet =)
Praise the Lord.
Finished one of the projects and presentations, and I think I did alright...maybe a little bit of mistakes on the design.
OH WELL, what's done is done.
I have a powerpoint "presentation" due tomorrow and I need to get working on that.
It's worth 5%, and it is worth A LOT.
Actually, I don't even know what to do right now.
IAT 102 is due on Friday, and I am thankful that I didn't need to present the project in the lecture on Monday.
*PHEW*
I am so tired and sleepy.
I think I'm getting used to sleeping at around 3am and waking up at around 9am.
Anyhow, got to go finish my work.
Jesus said, "I am the TRUE vine, and my FATHER is the GARDENER. Remain in ME, and I will remain in YOU."
Another translation is "ABIDE in me, and I in you."
Don't do anything, just abide in Christ and you'll grow good fruits.
"I can do all things through Christ who give me strength."

Ever since I have been so busy with school work, I realized that my room became a junk yard.
It's quite messy and I need to find time to clean it up after Friday.
For now, I need to finish my so called "power-point presentation slides" when REALLY I don't need to present.
Quite easy, but so much things to talk about...except I am having trouble with adding a graph and charts =/

Halloween

Celebrating the "living dead"...if that is what they called it.
Living dead doesn't sound pleasant to me.
Sounds evil to me.
Living dead = Zombies or Frankenstein or Vampire or Monsters.
It is more than that.
We're in a free country where we have the freedom to express "our" culture.
However, Christianity is not part of that culture.
I celebrate Jesus's birth and resurrection, but I DON'T celebrate Satanic.
I did went trick or treat once in my whole life.
That was during my elementary school years.
Collecting candies and dressing up like a evil dude.
It's quite interesting how things are shifting a lot in Halloween.
Not only there are people walking around dressing up, but just now, I hear EXPLOSIONS.
Yes, fireworks are the stuff that I'm talking about.
I do enjoy playing fireworks, but they are too expensive, and I don't have the time to play around with it.
Anyhow, if God is in war with Satan, then He must be against Satanic.
So what did I do during Halloween?
Taking pictures for my projects and staying up to finish some more work on IAT 102.
Oh Lord, I ask that I won't be selected to present on Monday, but if it's Your will, then let Your will be done =)
Got to always humble myself.
As I anticipated, I will have sleepless nights during this weekend =/
I am thankful for those who have been praying for me.
Don't stop there though because I am still working on it.
God is good, and I have been receiving a lot of strength and support from Him through this struggle in school.