Ma life time

Once again, im repeating the life im having now. Sometimes when ppl like me dont have much things to do like slacking off, i would just go to the internet and watch video from youtube which is kinda waste of my precious life. I gotta find some things to do that wont kill each of my cell without any reason. I want to do things, beside studying, that are useful. Everything i do have a reason. Like going to richmond and waste my time at aberdeen waiting for my mom to finish shopping. Or probably go to Billys house and reck place. Is there a reason to it. Yes, because i just want to reck his place. But i did go to a place that is reasonable to skip Awana and youth event, or maybe school if it was approval. I remember stepping to his place and thinking "wow how long havent we seen?" I want to thank Billy for helping me schedule that time just for me. We had lots of fun getting picture taken, although the place is small, but bless God for giving them great living. We had fun eating dinner and making jokes which was halarious. I really did love the dessert, woo chocolate ice-cream. I really did love to talk about my life with him, i know that he can fix me up and the life i'm having right now. He really did helped me turn my miserable thinking around. Although i have the desire to listen and do the thing he told me to do, but then iunno why im still like this. Is it because my faith isnt growing enough? We cant miss his wife. I love to talk to her. She's fun and really kind. She even played the song i wanted her to play. Although it was her first time to play that song, it did gotten slower a bit, i still loved it. She also told me that she'll play better when i see her again. She even kept the copy and try playing it. I dont even know wat to say to her but to say Thank you. One day i'll hear the beautiful melody flowing through my ear. But then i wont be seeing them for quite a while because God has givin them a plan to do. Quite a busy couple they are. He even advice me to "Finish Well" in school. After i heard that, it really flow through me. It did tell me not to finish too good if im correct or not, but i just want to finish good in school. I dun wanna get any C+ or lower. I even learned alot of things from them. How much we are worth to God. He gave me another quote"make your life appropriate today, so that you won't regret about it for tomorrow" if im correct with the sentence. Dun worry Billy can fill in for. Its pretty attracting in watching him taking a picture on a cup. He's been doing that for like 15min just to get a really good cup pic with a steam on it. And it did, it was soooo cooool and i really like the pic, looked like a portrait. Then talking to "her" about Billy liking that person and talking about me liking that person, which was outaa nowhere because we were in the kitchen and "he" was uploading picture into his laptop. He even told us something on how he got her. but thats just unusual i dont want to talk about it. It was pretty nice eating dinner with them for the first time. Then off to a new start i think.

           In school, i did got better at SOMETHING. I somehow got a feeling of forgeting her. After hanging around with my friends and playing so much of those mahjong and texas holdum or something with cards, i have a feeling that she's fading in my life. I really did had a good start. I dont really love her as much as usual. I sort of wanting to be her buddy forever and a friend. In my heart, i have another feeling that her spirit is still there. Even though Masao did told us not to follow our heart i still wanting to get on with my life. The memories will be there forever. She isnt a bother to me anymore. Man why is there so less hot girls in my school. Good thing is that 2 new hot girl came to our school! So HOT. I want to ask for there # but then nah too desperate. I dun wanna get another start.

           Sometimes i want to get mad and yell at ppl, but i dont really have the thingy to do it watever u call it. LIke YOU, yeah U know im talking about, dont make those stupid jokes again. O my it really pissed me off at home. I also want to yell at the Sun Sch Teacher, pissed me off when i heard he's not going to drive me to the grad place. I think, why are u guys are so irresponsible. Said the thing and dont do it. Is everyone playing with me? Am i good person to be played with? Before in the past, i always wanted to quit the youth sooooo bad. But why are u guys pulling me back? Am i really that useful and important to the youth. Or maybe am i important to you. I know you guys love me when im there, but one day, i have to leave u guys and probably wont get to see each other much. I know u guys will think, we still have time to spend with each other while we still have. anyways, thts all i have to say.

 

i really thank to the couple that helped me with my life. And i thank Billy for helping me through times when im down. I really thank God for blessing me each day. Thank you Pastor Jeff and Ruth.