Hello readers, viewers, and bloggers,
I understand that I haven't been updating myself for a while lately.
It is not because I am busy.
It is not because I am not motivated.
It is not because I am "lazy".
So, what is keeping me from blogging?
Well, I didn't fast from blogging.
Honestly, I do like to blog things about what I am learning.
However, the thing that really leads me to not blog is when I try not to talk about her.
There.
I made a confession.
I felt like I was talking about her so much that I tried not to talk about her on my blogs.
However, because I am not talking about her, that really led me away from blogging.
Realize that if I don't blog about her, then I don't have much to blog about.
Aside from that, I do have a lot of things to share with you guys.
For the past few weeks, my Pastor and I were getting together, and also with other people from my young adults if they ever come out, and have do an Inductive Bible Study.
First off, our study was based on "How to study the Bible".
And nope, we're not going through books or series of our study although those do come along in our studies.
It was a fruitful moment to study the Bible deeper and understand the historical context of the Bible.
This first lead us to study on how the Bible was written and how the authors were inspired by God through the Holy Spirit.
It was a deep study and I really enjoyed noting things down before I forget or if it doesn't sink down.
Later on, we went through the four books in the Gospel and understand why they are different but happened at the same time.
This word, "Pericipe"...don't know if I spelled it correctly...is an interesting word.
It meant small passages...something like that.
However, it was really deep and I will try to find time and blog it all out.
Moving on, I have been very sleepy these days ever since the Olympic Break.
I really do wish to go back to school at this moment.
Why?
Because I don't want to be stressed out with the assignment and project that is due first thing when I get back to SFU.
My sleeping schedule changed to 10pm, therefore, I sleep at around that time.
And I wake up at around 9am.
It has been great sleeping and resting a lot from school, but it is getting to me.
I feel so sleepy two hours after I wake up.
I wonder if it's because I sleep for so long and then wake up feeling so tired.
I wonder if it's better to sleep at least 8 hours.
Anyhow, what have I been doing?
I have been reading my Bible a lot lately and doing a lot of devotion and spending time with God.
He has been teaching me a lot through the books in the Old Testament.
I find so much interest in reading the history of it.
I confess, the first 9 chapters of 1 Chronicle is quite dull.
However, the Bible is God's word, so God's word CANNOT be boring.
For me, I find it boring because I don't understand it.
Therefore, if I do understand it, then I will find much interesting in learning the names, descendants, and genealogies.
Other than that important moment with God, I did have chance of going to Downtown...twice.
It's CRAZY.
I have never seen so many people in my whole life in Vancouver.
Downtown is just insane.
Crowds everywhere on one street and an another.
Quite a lot of tourist and travelers from the ends of the earth coming to Vancouver.
It is quite a privilege and blessing for Vancouver to host the Winter Olympics, although it doesn't feel like winter.
People are lining up for hours wanting to do this, see this, or touch that.
Anyhow, if you have yet to go to downtown, I really suggest you to go or else it's too late when the Olympic ends.
Speaking of downtown, I bumped into her yesterday in downtown.
It was such a surprise to see her and shocked me a bit.
My heart was bumping so fast that I got nervous for a moment.
Funny thing is, I was videotaping the zip-lining and, what you do know, I caught her in my video too without knowing that she's right there.
Wow, it's been a while since I last saw her, which was during Winter Conference.
I do think about her a lot, which is not necessarily a bad thing, before I go to bed, walking around, or sitting in the bus or skytrain.
I have been praying for her a lot lately...well of course.
Oh yeah, she was with her female friend when I bumped into her.
Therefore, I only greeted her and briefly talked to her before I ran and followed my mom.
Oh right, I forgot that I went to downtown because my mom wanted to go to downtown.
Anyhow, what is happening with both of us right now?
I already guessed that you might be curious of how things are going between her and I.
Well, we are still in the "waiting process".
We are praying for each other a lot for most of the time when we are on the phone.
Talking to her phone and talking to her in person feels so different.
When I saw her yesterday, she seemed different...well not much different.
We spend most of our times on the phone talking and sharing our lives with each other.
But, we have not been spending time together in person.
I found that to be very important in our relational matter.
There has been some things that is keeping us off guard.
If we do spend time together a lot, then wouldn't that mean we're "dating".
For a while, I believed that and that was why we should try to keep our distance from each other.
Yet, that was a wrong approach.
I guess it was because her close friend from church suggested that to her and I respected her because of that.
She met up with her youth leader and talked about this matter.
Her suggestion was quite different.
If we don't spend time together in person, then things would be so different.
I couldn't see her facial expression or how to see things in person.
There are so much I don't know about her in person other than just knowing her through voice.
It's just like "internet dating"...which is kind of awkward.
We are trying to arrange a time to meet with each other...hopefully more often.
She is on co-op this semester and her work schedule is TOTALLY messed up.
I tried to keep track of her schedule, but when I called her or text her, she was at work.
Totally confusing.
Anyhow, I do want to get together with her in person and talk.
It feels like we are leaning towards being together permanently.
Do I sound arrogant?
No, there's some proof and actions going in how she's approaching me.
Why would she call me even when I suggested her to call me once a week.
I'm not forcing her.
I just let her choose and decide what she wants to do with me.
Well, maybe I should talk to her about it.
More importantly, I also want to talk to her about a lot of stuff that I have been getting from people, which is a secret.
Anyways, do pray that we will strive to seek the kingdom of God.
All I want for prayer is for us to seek God's heart and grow in our relationship with Jesus.
Maybe you will say, "Don't you want to pray that you guys would be together."
I do want to be together with her, but that is not my motive.
I pray that both of us would submit ourselves to God and lift this situation up to God.
If it's His will for us to be together, then praise Him.
If not, then praise Him also.
I ask that you would pray for her since her work schedule is messed up.
12 hours shift...either 7am - 7pm or 7pm - 7am.
That's ridiculous.
She is weary.
She is having a hard moment finding time for herself.
I trust the Lord that He has His hands on her and taking care of her.
Pray that she will know God even deeper during this semester.
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will sour on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."
Remember to pray for other parts of the world right now as the Olympic is going into an end very soon.
I understand that I haven't been updating myself for a while lately.
It is not because I am busy.
It is not because I am not motivated.
It is not because I am "lazy".
So, what is keeping me from blogging?
Well, I didn't fast from blogging.
Honestly, I do like to blog things about what I am learning.
However, the thing that really leads me to not blog is when I try not to talk about her.
There.
I made a confession.
I felt like I was talking about her so much that I tried not to talk about her on my blogs.
However, because I am not talking about her, that really led me away from blogging.
Realize that if I don't blog about her, then I don't have much to blog about.
Aside from that, I do have a lot of things to share with you guys.
For the past few weeks, my Pastor and I were getting together, and also with other people from my young adults if they ever come out, and have do an Inductive Bible Study.
First off, our study was based on "How to study the Bible".
And nope, we're not going through books or series of our study although those do come along in our studies.
It was a fruitful moment to study the Bible deeper and understand the historical context of the Bible.
This first lead us to study on how the Bible was written and how the authors were inspired by God through the Holy Spirit.
It was a deep study and I really enjoyed noting things down before I forget or if it doesn't sink down.
Later on, we went through the four books in the Gospel and understand why they are different but happened at the same time.
This word, "Pericipe"...don't know if I spelled it correctly...is an interesting word.
It meant small passages...something like that.
However, it was really deep and I will try to find time and blog it all out.
Moving on, I have been very sleepy these days ever since the Olympic Break.
I really do wish to go back to school at this moment.
Why?
Because I don't want to be stressed out with the assignment and project that is due first thing when I get back to SFU.
My sleeping schedule changed to 10pm, therefore, I sleep at around that time.
And I wake up at around 9am.
It has been great sleeping and resting a lot from school, but it is getting to me.
I feel so sleepy two hours after I wake up.
I wonder if it's because I sleep for so long and then wake up feeling so tired.
I wonder if it's better to sleep at least 8 hours.
Anyhow, what have I been doing?
I have been reading my Bible a lot lately and doing a lot of devotion and spending time with God.
He has been teaching me a lot through the books in the Old Testament.
I find so much interest in reading the history of it.
I confess, the first 9 chapters of 1 Chronicle is quite dull.
However, the Bible is God's word, so God's word CANNOT be boring.
For me, I find it boring because I don't understand it.
Therefore, if I do understand it, then I will find much interesting in learning the names, descendants, and genealogies.
Other than that important moment with God, I did have chance of going to Downtown...twice.
It's CRAZY.
I have never seen so many people in my whole life in Vancouver.
Downtown is just insane.
Crowds everywhere on one street and an another.
Quite a lot of tourist and travelers from the ends of the earth coming to Vancouver.
It is quite a privilege and blessing for Vancouver to host the Winter Olympics, although it doesn't feel like winter.
People are lining up for hours wanting to do this, see this, or touch that.
Anyhow, if you have yet to go to downtown, I really suggest you to go or else it's too late when the Olympic ends.
Speaking of downtown, I bumped into her yesterday in downtown.
It was such a surprise to see her and shocked me a bit.
My heart was bumping so fast that I got nervous for a moment.
Funny thing is, I was videotaping the zip-lining and, what you do know, I caught her in my video too without knowing that she's right there.
Wow, it's been a while since I last saw her, which was during Winter Conference.
I do think about her a lot, which is not necessarily a bad thing, before I go to bed, walking around, or sitting in the bus or skytrain.
I have been praying for her a lot lately...well of course.
Oh yeah, she was with her female friend when I bumped into her.
Therefore, I only greeted her and briefly talked to her before I ran and followed my mom.
Oh right, I forgot that I went to downtown because my mom wanted to go to downtown.
Anyhow, what is happening with both of us right now?
I already guessed that you might be curious of how things are going between her and I.
Well, we are still in the "waiting process".
We are praying for each other a lot for most of the time when we are on the phone.
Talking to her phone and talking to her in person feels so different.
When I saw her yesterday, she seemed different...well not much different.
We spend most of our times on the phone talking and sharing our lives with each other.
But, we have not been spending time together in person.
I found that to be very important in our relational matter.
There has been some things that is keeping us off guard.
If we do spend time together a lot, then wouldn't that mean we're "dating".
For a while, I believed that and that was why we should try to keep our distance from each other.
Yet, that was a wrong approach.
I guess it was because her close friend from church suggested that to her and I respected her because of that.
She met up with her youth leader and talked about this matter.
Her suggestion was quite different.
If we don't spend time together in person, then things would be so different.
I couldn't see her facial expression or how to see things in person.
There are so much I don't know about her in person other than just knowing her through voice.
It's just like "internet dating"...which is kind of awkward.
We are trying to arrange a time to meet with each other...hopefully more often.
She is on co-op this semester and her work schedule is TOTALLY messed up.
I tried to keep track of her schedule, but when I called her or text her, she was at work.
Totally confusing.
Anyhow, I do want to get together with her in person and talk.
It feels like we are leaning towards being together permanently.
Do I sound arrogant?
No, there's some proof and actions going in how she's approaching me.
Why would she call me even when I suggested her to call me once a week.
I'm not forcing her.
I just let her choose and decide what she wants to do with me.
Well, maybe I should talk to her about it.
More importantly, I also want to talk to her about a lot of stuff that I have been getting from people, which is a secret.
Anyways, do pray that we will strive to seek the kingdom of God.
All I want for prayer is for us to seek God's heart and grow in our relationship with Jesus.
Maybe you will say, "Don't you want to pray that you guys would be together."
I do want to be together with her, but that is not my motive.
I pray that both of us would submit ourselves to God and lift this situation up to God.
If it's His will for us to be together, then praise Him.
If not, then praise Him also.
I ask that you would pray for her since her work schedule is messed up.
12 hours shift...either 7am - 7pm or 7pm - 7am.
That's ridiculous.
She is weary.
She is having a hard moment finding time for herself.
I trust the Lord that He has His hands on her and taking care of her.
Pray that she will know God even deeper during this semester.
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will sour on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."
Remember to pray for other parts of the world right now as the Olympic is going into an end very soon.
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