DONE!...for now.

YES! I am finally free from that stupid research paper!
I feel so relief after I handed it in.
Am I happy about it?
I am just happy that I handed it in, but it would be nice if I passed it.
It is better than to not hand it in.
So what am I going to do now that I am done?
More projects and assignments need to be done.
Next week is my first one and only mid-term for this semester.
For now, I am quite satisfied that I gave so much effort doing it...especially staying up until around 3am - 4am working on it...and sip some coffee in the morning.
It was quite hard to stay up doing on all these things.
I felt like I was not giving enough time or effort to work on it...
There were times I went out at night with my brothers and eat dinner and doing some fun things...
Well, it is good to relax.
It is not wrong to take a rest from work.
I actually do needed that rest and fun activity.
Most importantly, I do needed to place a time only for God.
It was quite hard to go back to my reading 2 King, Psalm, and Isaiah, but I did flip to other passages and get some encouragement from God's words.
Whatever the result is, I will continue to rejoice and give thanks, for He has always been showing me my weaknesses.
I find it funny how I always think so hard or over think stuff
I was talking to Joshua before class about creating a BIG project that seems kind of difficult.
And out of an instant, he just thought of something so simple that doesn't need to be difficult.
Sometimes you just got to think stupidly.
Then, I just thought of a verse similar to that, BUT THERE ARE NO RELATION between the verse and what I am saying.
1 Corinthians 1:25 "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength."
Why does it not have any relation?
Well, it talks about how the world see us, the Christian, as foolish people who follows Christ.
I would so rather be called foolish for believing Christ than to be smart.

Stress Level (Still Up)

Project is due today...not done yet.
Research paper is due tomorrow...not done yet.
Assignment due today...not done yet.
OKAY!
Today is the day!

Psalm 77
¹ I cried out to God for help;
       I cried out to God to hear me.

 ² When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
       at night I stretched out untiring hands
       and my soul refused to be comforted.

 ³ I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
       I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
       Selah

 ⁴ You kept my eyes from closing;
       I was too troubled to speak.

 ⁵ I thought about the former days,
       the years of long ago;

 ⁶ I remembered my songs in the night.
       My heart mused and my spirit inquired:

 ⁷ "Will the Lord reject forever?
       Will he never show his favor again?

 ⁸ Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
       Has his promise failed for all time?

 ⁹ Has God forgotten to be merciful?
       Has he in anger withheld his compassion?"
       Selah

 ¹⁰ Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
       the years of the right hand of the Most High."

 ¹¹ I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
       yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.

 ¹² I will meditate on all your works
       and consider all your mighty deeds.

 ¹³ Your ways, O God, are holy.
       What god is so great as our God?

 ¹⁴ You are the God who performs miracles;
       you display your power among the peoples.

 ¹⁵ With your mighty arm you redeemed your people,
       the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
       Selah

 ¹⁶ The waters saw you, O God,
       the waters saw you and writhed;
       the very depths were convulsed.

 ¹⁷ The clouds poured down water,
       the skies resounded with thunder;
       your arrows flashed back and forth.

 ¹⁸ Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
       your lightning lit up the world;
       the earth trembled and quaked.

 ¹⁹ Your path led through the sea,
       your way through the mighty waters,
       though your footprints were not seen.

 ²⁰ You led your people like a flock
       by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

Stress Level (UP)

Let me see...
Research Paper due on Wednesday...Off-Topic...Not finished...Need more reference...
Project...not done...takes a while to finish...
Assignment 1...not done...I heard it's easy...just do some write-ups...
Assignment 2...need to contact my partner.

Powerful Dream

"She has a place in your heart." ~ Nathaniel Grams.
I had the most powerful dream I ever had.
It was so powerful.
It is so difficult to explain it, but it was a powerful dream.
Just before the day ended, I had an hour conversation with Nathaniel.
You are guys will be like, "Who's Nathaniel? A new character in this blog?"
He's one of my brothers in Christ in Oakridge Baptist Church.
Anyhow, I was sharing something deep in my heart.
I longed to talk to someone who is willing to listen.
Since Nathaniel is doing his thesis, and he's going to be a counselor, I might as well share with him.
He said sometimes when you share something deep inside your heart with someone, it will probably hurt someone.
That is quite interesting.
I was sharing quite a lot of things about her, and how I view her both positive and negative.
It is just funny how I was talking about her for such a long time, and then I prayed for her before I slept...
I had this amazing dream about her.
Again, honestly, I cannot control my dreams.
It was so powerful...so powerful.
I won't go into details though.
However, when I woke up, I didn't complain, "ARGH! Why was it a dream? Why can't it be real?"
Instead of giving that kind of attitude, I asked God, "Father, what were you trying to show me?"
I was talking about her and praying for her before I slept, so I was wondering if God wanted to reveal something powerful to me.
I am very sure, and no doubt that God placed that dream while I was asleep.
It was like a supernatural work in my sleep.
I never had that kind of dream in my life.
It was so peaceful, and I felt connected with God.
Anyhow, I think this is enough or else people will start getting too curious of who she is...
although Jilly Jill Jill is already wondering who she is.
By the way, I stopped using facebook now.
I am fasting until Christmas, so if you guys want to contact me, then send me an email or leave a comment.
Anyways, I'm done sharing this to you guys, and I'm going to talk to Nathaniel about it when I see him tomorrow or later in the future.

Examples (1 Corinthians 10)

When I was reading the Bible today, God showed me an amazing thing.
Never had I ever thought about this.
What Paul said in 1 Corinthians 10 is very true to me...and I experienced it.
In verse 6, it says, "Now these things occurred as examples to keep us from setting our hearts on evil things as they did."
When I was reading the Old Testament and comparing what has been said in the New Testament, I was astonished.
In the New Testament, Jesus and Paul taught a lot about God's commands for us all, or else we'll face judgment.
A lot of times, we just don't see that happening right now.
We disobey God, we commit idolatry, we commit sexual sins...and many more.
Also, why people are suffering right now in this world, and why this and that happened.
Even though you don't any justice from God, you will be surprised when you read the Old Testament and seeing how God judged the Israelite.
Israelite was God's chosen nation.
However, they did all evil and worshiped other gods, and what happened?
Judgment: God never answered them, and He swallowed them.
They disobey God, and what happened?
Judgment: God set apart from Adam and Eve.
They commit sexual sins, and what happened?
Judgment: David displeased and despised God, therefore, God brought calamity upon him...Read 2 Samuel 12.
God showed me more things through His teachings.
Suffering as a Christian.
God took everything from Job, and Job still praised God.
The world is suffering.
During Jesus's time, there were a lot of people suffering from plagues and illness.
Definitely, you will also be surprised to see a lot people suffering in the Old Testament.
Do not yoke with non-believers.
Solomon married tons of non-believers, and guess what happened?
He worshiped other gods with his wives.
I can clearly see why this world is happening the way it is because it also happened in the Bible.
Sure, the New Testament was written around 2000 years ago.
The Old Testament was written a log before the New Testament...I will do more research on that with my youth leader on the origin of the Bible.
I believe there are non-believers who would serve by this blog and read this.
The Bible is not only the "resource" of guidance, but it is also the TRUTH.
Evidence?
Your heart may be hardened, but I bet Pharaoh's heart was a lot hardened than yours in Exodus, who disbelieved God because he believed he was god.
If you are truly seeking God, then I ask that you will take a careful read through the Bible, and you will be surprised how much God will show you.
Contradictions?
I won't discuss or argue with you about it because I believe that this problem has already been solved...just read it EXTRA carefully.

I talked to Nathaniel today...about lots of things.
Share tons of things that were in my heart.
It was a great sharing with him.