Peer Pressure

Today, I went and spoke to my advisor and she was very keen in helping me.
I was relieved that I dropped Physics, phew!
However, there is something worse that lies ahead...REQUIRED TO WITHDRAW.
Nope, I'm not going to fail right now.
My advisor told me that in order to stay at SFU, I MUST get a minimum of at least a C or 2.00 GPA.
When she said, it was as if her voice or "super sonic" pushed through my chest.
To be honest, I'm quite scared of what is going to happen this semester.
She said it's easy at first, but gets deadly when it goes on.
Will I do bad on all my courses?
I'm pretty motivated now to get rid of my probation and get myself into Good Academic Standing.
But, the words she said will not affect me and God's fellowship.
She did gave me a lot of good advise on how to prepare and study for my classes, so I'm pretty convinced
I must trust in God to get me through this, even though I have to do my parts too.
I asked that the Holy Spirit would guide and discipline me (repeated from the last post).
Another thing I want to point out is this summer.
I think I need a little bit of push to get myself to jump off the edge.

Relief

I have a big confession to those who are reading this: I dropped Physics.

Reasons?

I hate Physics...the end.

Why would I take something that I don't like?

6 Undesignated Breadth Credit means I can take ANYTHING outside my Major or Program, so why not take something I want to study?

After I clicked the drop button, I know after that something might come up.

I felt this sense of relief.

Furthermore, things got heat up on my mom and brother's side when I told them about it.

I should considerably learn how to make better decisions.

I told them that I want to get a scholarship with three courses.

My mom was proud when I said it.

But will I get it?

I don't know.

I have a diagnostic test for Calculus tomorrow and I barely even study for it.

*sigh* I need some motivation and the Holy Spirit to guide and discipline me.

At the edge

What happens if you're at the edge?
There are many different kinds of edges.
I can say the edge of the table, the edge of failing, the edge of falling off a cliff...etc.
In my situation right now, I'm at the edge of decision.
I'm thinking and praying what to do.
Should I got on Waterloo Project or Summer School?
Or perhaps right now, should I drop Physics?
Why you ask?
It does not fulfill the requirement I need, except it gives me the credit.
I took this course because I want to challenge it again, and thought it will fulfill the requirement I need(WQB Requirement...check SFU for more info)
My professor told me it doesn't fulfill it, but he wasn't too sure about it.
I'm sitting here right now, thinking if I should wait until Tuesday and talk to my Adviser.
Should I skip that class and the lab?
Could it be a risky choice?
I don't want to waste my time anymore, and I wish the things I'll be doing be beneficial!

Sabbath Day

I was told that the Sabbath is supposed to be a day of rest.
This is one of the amazing things that God did...is that He rested on the 7th day.
When I think about it, I think upon some other requirements that I need to accomplish, such as homework.
I should give myself sometime to reflect upon God.
Today, it was Men's Breakfast, and I led the worship.
It was my very 1st time that I've ever lead and play guitar at the same time.
I felt great and I should pursue and practice more.

One more hour until the end of the day, and the end of the week, and the end of this day...forever.
Can't look back from what just happened, but life goes on.
I get older and older each day and slowly builds up.
Who knows what is going to happen in my future.
Who knows what career I'll be doing.
Who knows if I'm going to get married or not.
Who knows who's going to be my wife.
Who knows how my children will turn out to be.
Who knows...who knows...who knows.
God knows.(in reference to Psalm 139)
Prepare the way for me, Oh Lord.
To your kingdom where Your children belongs.

Stike One! Strike Two! Strike Three! You're Out!

Today, I stumbled upon a friend who haven't been to C4C for a while. I asked him how he's been these days and how come I didn't see him last semester. It seems he is struggling with Christianity and have some doubts about it. "I don't think Jesus is the only way to God." "You can't love anyone without God's love." "If Christianity is not a religion, then we shouldn't go to church." My heart was stoke of how he's being very skeptical about it. I only knew him last semester and didn't spoke to him that often...and he sounded very passionate about God. I mean, these questions were hard for me to explain it to him although I do know the answers to it. If you're reading this, please pray for him because I know that God will answer his questions.

Finally! I saw that person today! I haven't that person for almost a month ever since we did an exchange. I was very happy to see that he/she is alive and still. I wonder if that person and I will ever have a serious talk about what to do. Seems like my mind is always fantasizing about the future. I've been seeking the kingdom of God and I wonder if that person is running beside me right now...? It strikes me how I always have a casual talk with that person instead of something very serious. Hopefully there is something beyond greater things in what God is doing in our lives.

I shared my story of how God showed me something in Winter Con to the people at Ignite. Seems like God is calling me to Waterloo Project, but at the same time I really need to take some courses. I was debating on what to decide....Summer School or Project??? I've been praying to see where God is showing or directing me. My friend and I were talking about courses and catching up and stuff. It seems like in University, you can take as much course as you want, and you don't need to rush it. Another friend told me that she's in 3rd year and she still deciding when to declare her Major. I was astonished of how University life is all about. Some people takes like 6 years or 8 years to graduate. I was thinking, hmm if I'm not in a rush, why not go on project? Should I go or not go? GO! We ARE FIGHTING DREAMERS!

I'm out and off to Waterloo Project this summer (hopefully). Please pray if I made the right decision.